"And my shoes took me down a crooked path

away from all welcome mats

My worried shoes."

I want to build a home, i want a place to feel home.

I want to not be lost, i want to not feeling like the smallest creature on this enormous planet.

I want to know what to do, i want to not be a fool.

I want pies, and coffee, and sleep.

I still leave my phone on loud every night, just incase, i wouldn't want to miss anything, but i never do.

I want to fire a gun.

When all of your roses were mine...

I can't remember the last time i've felt so dry, completely drained and so confused.

It's a feeling that can only be put as words if one would only imagine being picked up by my hair and placed randomly in space being so clueless and nervous, and there it comes, the entire world just drops on me, from all the places the universe, it chose to drop in the one spot where i stood. And after somehow crawling out from underneath, i stay there powerless, as if everything inside of me stayed trapped under those weights, and it's just my body and it's useless. I'll recollect those little pieces back up from scratch, but goodbye is the saddest word.

I sleep in these dirty sheets

A blanket between my boney knees
But you already know that because you used to crawl in bed with me in the morning before work.

I'm about ready to admit that i've lost it. My mind hasn't been flowing down a steady stream for as long as i can remember. My mind is two trains constantly running parallel to one another in opposite directions. And i am so close to losing hope because honestly, there isn't anything to push me forward, there never was, it was always me and being constantly let down is beginning to eat my alive. I feel drained to the tips of my skeletal feet. Overtiredness is winning. When was the last time i got to sleep with no alarm to shut off in the morning? 

Sonic hangover

But not really...We got there in such perfect timing just when it started to get dark out but not too much and the weather was perfect so we sat there and ate SOOO much and sipped out of the best limeades and had the windows down and just gave enjoyed it the way it should be enjoyed. Started sharing a Butter finger Blast for desert but couldn't finish it =/ Stopped at rite aid on the way back and got a Peachy Peach Little Tree =] My car smells the best that it has ever smelled before!

Youch

Sooo me and Silvie bee have been real cute like lately, getting baked goodies, candle light dinner outside in the rain but under a large umbrella, gettin lost on some magical forest and finding anipals etc. Greatest human in my life ^__^ Finally got to watching Control last night and i am glad i watched it with her and wasn't the only one who felt like throwing the chip bowl at the T.V. ahhhhh. So after that and a weird shower, i never notice how long Dan and i stay on the phone for

Eugene Hutz

Is it wrong to think that we would make perfect life mates?
Worst food luck today, dry bagel followed by nauseating oreos and a white chocolate macademia luna bar....to end with the worst grilled cheese and a snickers ice cream bar. My stomach is in hell.
Every time i pick my clothes up off the floor and place them nicely in my closet i feel like such an accomplished adult...that is until i come out to the messiest living room in the world. Ahhh and i mean shoes, dust, bras, bags, lotions, pens, books, chapsticks, movies what the heck not all over everywhere. Keep up the wolf spider visits, deliver your messages, misters.

Our paperback books, Our charming looks Our identical hands, composing our commands

I cut the moon in half and stuck a piece to my hair It made the back of my head glow Golden yellow
and then I took ten stars on sticks and placed them in my small metal bucket and I gave the other half of the moon to you Ooh,
so you wouldn't forget me while i'm gone

I don't want to clean my room and I don't want to do school work yet. I woke up a bit too early today and I'm sleepy. Just about to introduce mom to the Wristcutters....cause she loves Gogol Bordello like that ^__^