Wednesday, April 21, 2010

So a friend of mine sent me a link to a recorded radio show about "breaking up" i didn't save it cause i don't think i ever want to hear it again. “That’s the crazy thing about it is breaking with someone is literally the most common thing, every one you know broke up with everyone they ever dated, until maybe the person they are with right now. but when it happens to you it feels so specific. I don’t wanna say I can’t get over it but in a flipping way it’s like I can’t get over it, it’s like “what this is what’s happening” it’s so shocking”
Where are these girls and why can't i be best friends with them ? And one of the girls mentioned not wanting to move on because she doesn't want to let go of those insane feelings she's never felt before, even though they hold her back from being happy. What the fuck is going on and when will it stop?

Sunday, April 18, 2010

"I’ve never met anyone like you. I’m just so fucked up. I don’t have a real job. And I’ve never had a boyfriend , never been in love, and it’s just a lot. It’s too much”
There are so many things I could have/ should have done differently, but I was a baby and didn't. I was a baby in many ways and have come such a long way to be where I am now.
Wrapping myself in a thick layer of ice once again, i'm gonna need a really, really good reason to let anyone in again.