Thursday, December 24, 2009

No rules christmas!

So since my family is crazy and we celebrate (but not really celebrate), more like acknowledge, (perhaps an excuse for a big dinner and present exchange, and toasts) both jewish and christian holidays, and where we are from, we don't put presents under the tree and open them on christmas morning, we give presents on new years... but since we are in America now we combine both and just exchange presents on Christmas eve, which happens to be today!

ANDDD yeah, i got the suitcase as well, and yeah those are awesome large bumble bees, it rules!
Can't wait to get a few more in the mail soon!
I, myself still have a few more to give out to my sweetest biddies, come get your presents and some lovins mamas!
Spending Christmas day in Baltimore come on morning hurry up!

Tuesday, December 22, 2009

Sunday, December 20, 2009

Woke up by 7am to an un-get-outable driveway and to a phone call from Russia saying my great gramma died =/ 
What else ya got for me winter?! might as well shoot it at me now than later

Saturday, December 19, 2009


Last day of class was thursday!
Insanely rushed couple of days, this is the first time breathing in a while.
A good way to start my first morning of freedom:
So promised to post pictures of my finals but i am too lazy to upload the 100% final prints right now so here are the 99% pre finalized:

Note: all typography is 100% hand done.
In the finalized version the text boxes are shaped as coffee mugs and beans.

I usually really anticipate the winter and especially the snow, but this year it seems like every time i plan on driving (which i barely do at all nowadays except for to work and back), it snows, A LOT. Does the snow hate me or do i hate it? I mean come on... Please be gone by afternoon- evening time tomorrow.

Monday, December 14, 2009

Tummy demon

Stop paying me random visits, you are not welcome
Stop tricking me and making me think you are gone when you aren't,
Please, please, just leave me and my little weak tummy alone, 
I know that it is you little baby pink pill, you better cut it out.
(That's my poem i wrote dedicated to the awful tummy demon)

Got some more online shopping done while in bed tonight, time is running out and i really need to catch up with this gift list deal.

Trying to brain stop some sort of a new crazy delicious cake... so tough when i'm a cake lover and the possibilities are so endless.

The greatest:
I promised to be a better picture taker next time.

Friday, December 11, 2009

Yay promotion!

Meet your new full time accessory visual!

Thursday, December 10, 2009

Absolutely pointless

Since i post mostly for myself... just incase any of my friends happen to actually read this, i'd like a pair of these cuties for christmas....;]

(I'm a size 7)

Tuesday, December 8, 2009

Hey nonny na na na na

IT SNOWED OVER THE WEEKEND!!! There was a snow storm! And i didn't enjoy it as much as i thought i would but i did enjoy stepping on the crunchy snow that stuck to the ground.
D d d d d done & done!

Friday, December 4, 2009

I miss you today, Lilo (next to me) 
and the way you used to make me feel like i was hanging out with the actual Lilo, and the key chain you brought me back from Hawaii and put it in my locker and when i went to go open it you snuck behind me to see my reaction and i gave you the biggest hug. 
It's people like that that only play such a small role in your life that you never think it'd make a difference if they leave, but it does. Work isn't the same without you, really =/

Thursday, December 3, 2009

In your heart of chambers

Is it summer today? I don't like summer that much.
Has the world invented a toothbrush for the mind yet? Mine would like to be brushed clean today. Where is my family every morning? How come i've been waking up in a completely empty house with no notes or messages left for me to read. All the food i bought for myself cause no one else buys food in this house anymore is gone, thanks for leaving me two slices of my own bread, which were wasted on the most un-delicious breakfast sandwich. There's no juice in either fridge.
Going in slightly early today, registration for my last three months in a private institute. What's next? who knows? I'd love to leave this state and go on somewhere else. Offerings for that matter:0 =/

Anyway,  it's 63 degrees out in central NJ today! going to ride my bike to the bus stop instead of driving, going to wear a sweater with no jacket! Going to wear shoes with no socks, AND taking a bottle of refrigerated water instead of a coffee full thermos.

Two days til Baltimore again, hurry hurry.

All i want to know is that i'm on the bright side, that i can turn that frown upside down, at least sometimes, most of the time, cause that's all i want to be, and what i want to be able to do.
Almost forgot Justine's gift AGAIN, woopz ;]

Tuesday, December 1, 2009

Filled with the sun

There is no better place to wake up on the first day of December than the place where I woke up this morning. Fantastic Mr. Fox truly was nothing but quite fantastic.Seeing it with my favorites of humans only made it this much better. 

(Who would have thought AMC Loew's would have the most humongous awesome bathroom?)
3 weeks left of school, by now i can't stand the smell of coffee any longer, it's coming out quite alright, will make sure to post the final outcome.
After weeks upon weeks of wanting overloads of breakfast food in my tummy, Zach and I finally went to ihop, where we ordered way more than enough and ate til' we couldn't anymore.

 And yes, all those plates were for the two of us. And no, we didn't eat all 100% of it. But i'd say we did a good job of about 97.5%.
Annnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnddd we built a wonderful fort.

Saturday, November 28, 2009


Black friday at work was the worst work day in history i believe,  so afterwards, still exhausted and unshowered, Becky drove over for some PB & chocolate cereal crunchin and The Life Aquatic.
I liked thanksgiving this year. We didn't go to my aunts this year cause she didn't invite us so my parents invited over some freaky friends whom i have never met before and it just wasn't anything family like. We aren't even American...
So this year i celebrated it with Silvana (two euros with freaky euro parents, figures huh?) , and i could say it was the One years win out of five so far.
We made some vegan gnocchi's with spinach and vegan pumpkin cheesecake that was DELICIOUS! 
then we snuggled up on her comfy couch to watch a movie with bunny cuteness =]
100% ready to get done with this work weekend and feel some weakness in my knees for a few days, packing clothes and all the chocolate i got for Zach and myself into my bag and melting into my new fantastic flannel sheets which were so hard to leave this morning.

Monday, November 23, 2009

"I can't seem to make you miiiine"

I have so much design work to do and my brothers computer is gone and i can't find my teachers e-mail. Bummer. Gives me more time to clean up the mess my closet has spit out onto my bedroom floor. Annnnnnnd enjoy free Netflix!!! Since i now officially have it!
This movie has been on my mind for quite some time now, it's great, so glad i get to watch it for free when ever i wish to now.

As shaky as i was about christmas time this year, i think i'm getting a little excited... only because i love the snow and wearing gloves and scarves and keeping warm and how good it feels to get in a bed with more than just one large blanket after a real winter day outside. 
However, i am NOT excited for christmas time at work AT ALL. And everyone is trying to make it out to be so cute and nice by playing christmas music and having holiday theme days, and even little in store decorations....sorry guys, it's going to suck!

My stocking FROM LAST YEAR was put back up while i was in Baltimore over the weekend, this was kind of cute to come back to

Just double checking up on the internet ALMOST forgot that "Until the light takes us" officially comes out in 11 days, so dear movie theaters, see you then!
Been non-stop listening, and there is a wolf in the very start of the video, not to mention i believe it is the only video they've ever had...purrfect 

Friday, November 20, 2009

Upstairs Downstairs

Our music system at work broke, don't really mind it. So last night Kelly told me she'd found some sort of old mix CD and that she's going to bring it in for us to listen to this morning. I haven't listened to Dramarama since last winter, i've missed it.
Amazing how this world works, wether it's all the awful disgusting things that i hate to believe exist, or the little wonderous ones. Today as i was walking out of Victoria's Secret i heard someone call my name and when i turned around my eyes almost fell out of my face. It was a girl who was(/is) best friends, and a neighbor (well ex neighbor obviously), of my best friend back in Israel days. How do things like that happen? she now lives here with her boyfriend who i went to school with...I'm still so shocked and excited about it at the same time I mean...really?...

I've been waiting for this pay check for SUCH a long time, i've had $1.75 in my account since Wednesday...woops!
Also waited for the UPS man all day, kept calling home from work to see if he came and now at 5:40PM he finally did. Phone's here =] 
It feels so much later than it is this time of year, going to catch up with the little miss and get my guitar tuned by Jake, finally. Tomorrow is just almost here and i must remember to not forget to purchase my bus tickets to Baltimore soon as i'm back home tonight.

Biggest crush on the littlest lady <3

Monday, November 16, 2009

Faces sweaty, arms and legs, what a glorious set of stairs we make

I wish i could dig a whole into my own brain sometimes, only to remove certain pieces. Like when i asked myself too many questions, or don't ask enough. That's just a small example. And i wish i could install an automatic sleep machine inside my body, so no matter what i do, awake or not, my body will be getting the right amount of rest without me even noticing. I can almost say i hate being home. And it isn't a "i'd rather be anywhere but here" sort of thing. My family is awesome. It's just that i'd rather stay where you are. Maybe i just haven't gotten a normal amount of sleep in some time. I'm so overdue. Mother nature, bring the snow on, now!
But till' then, i'll have to fake it with christmas time in my own bed. Alone.

Monday, November 9, 2009

I get eaten by the worms

Google has been doing this:
Which rules and is even more inviting than usual.

Finally found all Bored To Death episodes online and was so excited to catch up to what i have been missing out on but the website only let me get as far as episode 3.
But hey, this was cute :

I have a feeling that this week is going to be the most dragging week of all, that's how it always is when there is a wonderful weekend to look forward to. So, dear Tuesday, Wednesday, and Thursday, please, please, please go by lighting fast. Thanks.

Wednesday, November 4, 2009

Perhaps it's a matter of feeling some sort of refreshment, or feeling really nostalgic... Either way i welcome you warmly, November.

ANDDDDDDDDDD I finally got to meet Regal...

He hops like a fox from one room to another, with such large hops for such short distances.

On another side note, burning my tongue for the third this week, was NOT cool, it hurts, one of the most unpleasant things. It just feels strange.
And this is something that's been on my mind for quite some time but what i thought was getting out of the cycle that's been circling itself for so long, happens to in fact be a bigger circle, surrounding that little circle, only adding on to that old cycle, and by now it seems impossible to get out of.

Tuesday, November 3, 2009

Feeling like a fly lost in this gigantic universe, or maybe it's not as gigantic as it seems... could it be, that what seems like such a larger and far space, actually stops at some place and some point? Is it possible to touch it if you reach far enough? Then what if i am stuck in that black web, or on that black wall? Well that's the question

12:28AM and I am already a zombie
I didn't realize that midterms week is this week...THIS week right now, already... I'm doing great with Advanced Type and I love it but, I haven't even started my internship journal at all. So now I sit here tired and hungry and just wanting to be focusing my eyes and brains on some sort of either inspiring or brain storming filmography, with a large mug of peach tea, under a thick blanket, but instead i have writing upon writing to catch up on and my eyes....they are just slowly drifting backwards with each second i pause to think.

I won't go whistling by your grave, if you don't go whistling in my mind
Welcome to a place where nightmares, are the best part of my day

Sunday, November 1, 2009

Paper Ships, Paper Brainz

"I sailed on a ship of paper
And i sunk in the deep of your eyes
I got lost in your graveyard
Now i dream on a bed of knives

I found the maps to your maps
I lost the shores for you
And i'll never get back
Cause i'm a ghost ship on the blue

The birds are in the sky
Land's been gone for days
All you left was time
To find a solid grave

The earth is flat and dangerous
I grew out of my iron coat
With a banshee in a tunnel"

Whatever todays date trade! Sleeping on the wrong side of the bed tonight for the first time in a very long while, just to clear that part of my brain that got left behind, i'm sorry i couldn't reach you earlier, buddy.

On the bright side of the Universe, there was finally OJ in my fridge in the garage, you're safe in bed with me for the night now, little one.

Monday, October 26, 2009

"And my shoes took me down a crooked path

away from all welcome mats

My worried shoes."

I want to build a home, i want a place to feel home.

I want to not be lost, i want to not feeling like the smallest creature on this enormous planet.

I want to know what to do, i want to not be a fool.

I want pies, and coffee, and sleep.

I still leave my phone on loud every night, just incase, i wouldn't want to miss anything, but i never do.

I want to fire a gun.

Friday, October 2, 2009

When all of your roses were mine...

I can't remember the last time i've felt so dry, completely drained and so confused.
It's a feeling that can only be put as words if one would only imagine being picked up by my hair and placed randomly in space being so clueless and nervous, and there it comes, the entire world just drops on me, from all the places the universe, it chose to drop in the one spot where i stood. And after somehow crawling out from underneath, i stay there powerless, as if everything inside of me stayed trapped under those weights, and it's just my body and it's useless. I'll recollect those little pieces back up from scratch, but goodbye is the saddest word.

Tuesday, August 4, 2009

I sleep in these dirty sheets

A blanket between my boney knees
But you already know that because you used to crawl in bed with me in the morning before work.

I'm about ready to admit that i've lost it. My mind hasn't been flowing down a steady stream for as long as i can remember. My mind is two trains constantly running parallel to one another in opposite directions. And i am so close to losing hope because honestly, there isn't anything to push me forward, there never was, it was always me and being constantly let down is beginning to eat my alive. I feel drained to the tips of my skeletal feet. Overtiredness is winning. When was the last time i got to sleep with no alarm to shut off in the morning? 

Thursday, June 4, 2009

Sonic hangover

But not really...We got there in such perfect timing just when it started to get dark out but not too much and the weather was perfect so we sat there and ate SOOO much and sipped out of the best limeades and had the windows down and just gave enjoyed it the way it should be enjoyed. Started sharing a Butter finger Blast for desert but couldn't finish it =/ Stopped at rite aid on the way back and got a Peachy Peach Little Tree =] My car smells the best that it has ever smelled before!

Wednesday, May 27, 2009


Sooo me and Silvie bee have been real cute like lately, getting baked goodies, candle light dinner outside in the rain but under a large umbrella, gettin lost on some magical forest and finding anipals etc. Greatest human in my life ^__^ Finally got to watching Control last night and i am glad i watched it with her and wasn't the only one who felt like throwing the chip bowl at the T.V. ahhhhh. So after that and a weird shower, i never notice how long Dan and i stay on the phone for

Friday, May 22, 2009

Eugene Hutz

Is it wrong to think that we would make perfect life mates?
Worst food luck today, dry bagel followed by nauseating oreos and a white chocolate macademia luna end with the worst grilled cheese and a snickers ice cream bar. My stomach is in hell.
Every time i pick my clothes up off the floor and place them nicely in my closet i feel like such an accomplished adult...that is until i come out to the messiest living room in the world. Ahhh and i mean shoes, dust, bras, bags, lotions, pens, books, chapsticks, movies what the heck not all over everywhere. Keep up the wolf spider visits, deliver your messages, misters.

Tuesday, May 19, 2009

Our paperback books, Our charming looks Our identical hands, composing our commands

I cut the moon in half and stuck a piece to my hair It made the back of my head glow Golden yellow
and then I took ten stars on sticks and placed them in my small metal bucket and I gave the other half of the moon to you Ooh,
so you wouldn't forget me while i'm gone

I don't want to clean my room and I don't want to do school work yet. I woke up a bit too early today and I'm sleepy. Just about to introduce mom to the Wristcutters....cause she loves Gogol Bordello like that ^__^

Monday, May 18, 2009

Goin' blind

I will stand by all this drinking if it helps me through these days
But I've spent a long time corresponding in my own way.

Why do i obsess over this album every time i come across it? Caught myself starring onto a piece of paper filled up with porn and jellyfish sketches... surrounding my english notes. The series of the assigned poems from last week blew my head of completely.
So she cut off her nose and her legs and offered them up. . . Doesn't she look pretty? everyone said. Consummation at last. To every woman a happy ending.
The other sister cut off her heal, but the blood told as the blood will.
And why is it the less sleep i get the better i feel? But more importantly, HOW is it i've been havig such a hard time getting to sleep in the first place?
And i can honestly say the song "Stress" is a perfect instrumental example of what my brain has been acting like. I can smell the pilmeni from upstairs and boy am i so starving. I can not wait to be Peter Criss for a day. Scratch that, for days, just the best ones.

Monday, March 30, 2009

Leonard Cohen

I'm broken down
from a recent fall.
Blood upon my body
and ice upon my soul,
lead on, my son, it is your world.